A New Beginning

Werewolf

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 07:42:24 GMT

In a dream I was a werewolf
My soul was filled with crystal light
Lavender ribbons of rain sang
Ridding my heart of mortal fight

Broken sundown fatherless showdown
Gun hip swollen lip bottle sip yeah I suck dick
Lose grip on gravity falls sky blinding crumbling walls
River sweep away my memories of
Children�s things a young mother�s love
Before the yearning song of flesh on flesh
Young hearts burst open wounds bleed fresh
A young brother skinny and tall my older walks
Oceanward and somber, slumber sleeping
Flowers in the water,
But I�m just his daughter
Walking down an icy grave
leading to my Schizophrenic father.
Weeping willow won�t you wallow louder
Searching for my father�s power

I�ma shake you off though
Get up on that horse and
Ride into the sunset
Look back with no remorse

He�s a black magic wielder some say a witch
Wielded darkness when he was wilein� on his mom�s
And born child and he was the bastard that broke
Up the marriage evil doer doing evil from a baby carriage
And he was born with the same blue eyes
Crystal ships dripping with ice, diamonds coruscate
In the night fireworks electric bright
And now he�s got his own two sons
Tried to hide his tearz in a world of fun
But loveless bedrooms filled with doom
Bring silent heartache July to June
Woon over new young hot flame
Mourn the memories later
Laugh now aligator

Oh in a dream
My father came to me
And made me swear that I�d keep
What sacred to me
And if I get the choice
To live in his name
I pray my way through the Rain
Singing Oh happy day

I don�t mean to close the door
But for the record my heart is sore
You blew through me like bullet holes
Left staind on my sheets and stains
On my soul
You left me broke down beggin for change
Had to catch a ride with a man who�s deranged
He had your hands and my father�s face
Another western vampire different time same place
I had dreams that brings me sadness
Pain much deep that a river
Sorrow flow through me in tiny waves of shivers
Corny movies make me reminisce
Breat me down easy on this generic love shit
First kiss frog and princess

A Techno Love Song

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 03:18:58 GMT

I fell in love with a bad bad man
Every since i met him
I've been sad sad sad
I'm a jailbird to your music
A criminal in your prayer
I watch you when you sleep
Even when you're not there

Rainbows wept color all over the streets
When you went away maybe one day we'll meet

Lipstick i'd wear for one million years
Just to stop your eyes from falling down to you

I fell in love with a bad bad man
Every since i met him
I've been sad sad sad
I'm a jailbird to your music
A criminal in your prayer
I watch you when you sleep
Even when you're not there

Rainbows wept color all over the streets
When you went away maybe one day we'll meet
One day we'll meet
One day we'll meet
One day
We'll meet

Lost

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 02:35:53 GMT

There once was a gentle boy with no ambitions in mind,

Who leapt from person to person,

Not knowing where he would find his place.

Lost and bewildered, by what significant event?

He did not know.

He never knew.

One day, he met this girl with miserable and tired eyes,

Who hid them with an effortless, goofy smile,

Always making up a joke to avoid what really needed to be addressed.

Fed up and hopeless,

She never knew life could be so empty,

Until she found him, the misplaced boy without any focused aspirations.

She always was attracted to a lost cause.

Last Week

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 02:33:48 GMT

They say that we do not what sorrow is. We have not lived through their experiences and we have not seen what their eyes have been so traumatized by, so how could we know anything about pain? We are young, we are reckless and irresponsible. We know nothing of love, we know nothing of pain.

So when we are walking fearfully up our front steps, afraid of what may face us when we enter the door, we must remember that we are not allowed appearing hurt. The yells will issue and insults will fly, and soon they will be followed by an eerie, lifeless silence. Forget any politeness and say goodbye to love because they will not be found anytime soon. And when you break down and let the tears flow, it is then when it will be confirmed that you have lost the battle. When you admit what is going on behind that frazzled mind of yours will be the time that your defences will be penetrated.

In a home where emotion is forbidden, you must learn to be the master of nothingness. A blank face and empty eyes will be all that is acceptable.

Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 06:46:48 GMT

They are the same lessons being taught over and over again
yet never grasped
and always hurt,
there is something wrong with the fear of the unknown.

At such a young age,
life feels like it's not meant to be understood
but as we grow into something more
will we know what to do then?

tbc

too friggn tired.

"You can't love anyone until you understand that you can't love everyone. "

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 06:06:09 GMT

they say, time heals everything, I'm still waiting.
Love is a complicated thing,
and how many times have you heard that before? Too many.

Music induces what is screaming out inside to be let loose.
Too weak, too nice, there's just something about being internally shy.

Preoccupied? Jealous? yes, jealousy indeed
Patience is a virtue
Perhaps it is time to dust off that old mask,

stop trying to please everyone

Insane.

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 03:55:03 GMT

Should I speak?
Should I bother shaking hands?
Am I weak If I leave it as it stands?
I've submerged
And I've surfaced with the blame
I guess I'm no good, I guess I'm insane

Should I go, if she calls out my name?
And if she bleeds, should I wipe up the stain?
And if I'm low, can I drown in this rain?
I guess I'm no good, I guess I'm insane

And I hate when you say
That I never fight for you
Sometimes you breathe
All over my scar
And you always end up
Closer than close
That's where I give in

Should I confess
The actions of a hand
In my mind
I'll betray you once again
Why should I climb?
What is there to gain?
This is no good
This is insane

And I hate when you say
That I never fight for you
Sometimes you breathe
All over my scar
And you always end up
Closer than close
That's whenre I give in

You're taking, you're taking
You're taking me down
You're taking, you're taking
You're taking me down
And you always end up
Closer than close
That's where I give in

One of the best songs of all time,

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 06:11:00 GMT

"Hallelujah"

Now I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light
In every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though
It all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah

A mother's Love to her child

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 06:00:40 GMT

may you always walk with pride

may you never stumble and fall

may every dream that you want come true

i wish for it all

i know it is just a wish

and they sometimes dont come true

that wont stop me wishing

cause thats what mothers do

may you smile and laugh each day

every tears that touch you too

may all your troubles seem like things that you can get through

and when you feel you're lost

may your path appear

may you win your darkest hour

and know that somewhere love is near

i know its just a wish

and they sometimes dont come true

but that wont stop me wishing

cause thats what mother do,

i know that people can be cruel

i know that life is not always fair

and the odds are good

if you love someone

Early Morning Writings- Wake up, it's a new day

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 02:41:42 GMT

I've always played with the idea of Death.
It's flirted with me and oh, have I ever flirted back.
It's wanted me, silently screaming for me to come join its dark and somber embrace.

And now, when love is rare to find,
Death seems more appealing than ever there waiting
honestly, patiently, quietly
for me to finally succumb.